Outside looking inside looking out!

So I find myself unsure of what I want out of life. Success, admiration, I just don't know. I guess I just want to find something that would keep me trucking on the road that is life. A artist in need of art I guess. I love exploring my mind with new ideas about things. But to be honest I can't figure out which ideas I like and want to keep exploring. I finished school for now. I have accumulated a associates in art and a bachelors in film and digital media specifically sound design. I love music but as much as I try to play my guitar I don't seem to find a calling within music as a musician. I like to jam and explore the strings, yet I never seem to be able to put together a great song. I seem do be drifting. I do like recording yet with the internet and downloading the way it is the music industry is shrinking and I don't really feel I will get a job within the recording industry. I'm left with live sound reinforcement for shows and venues. This would be a great job. Mostly weekends and evenings which fits my crazy schedule. I just don't know how to go about getting on with a crew. Everything I have tried has failed before it even gets started. I am such a creative person, yet I don't know where to apply my skills. I love to make art. I have tried several different mediums but find myself going back to digital formats everytime. Photoshop is my best friend. I just can't find my calling. I am ready for a change in my life but not quite sure how to go about it. That stupid movie Joe Dirt has the best saying, "Life's a garden, dig it!" My problem being I don't know where to dig. If you got any ideas for me or are intrested in my art work let me know. I appreciate any feed back.

Everybody always says there has to be more to life than just living. But I feel that in my 25 years life has been rather messed up, and why would you want more. To live forever would suck. You want a answer to life. I go with the hitchhiker on this one. 42 paths a man must walk down. I have definatly walked about 5 to 10 by now. Just keep a working my way down the olive branch. I have loved and lost, loved and won, then lost again. To keep reaching for a new life. A better life. One that could spring board me to a even better level of conciousness. No war. No Fighting. Just a peacful life with peaceful people. I understand peoples views differ on many subjects. But why is it always about whos right and whos wrong. Can't we just agree to disagree. If you need proof to the countrary of someone elses beleifs. Fine prove it, but don't rub it in their face. To me that shows how much less of a person you are then them.

Just tired of bullshit I guess. God knows I'm not perfect but I'll keep reaching for some sunshine on a cloudy day. Fighting only to defend myself not to prove a point. The Beatles said it, "Come together" And I admire what they were saying. We need to come together and stop the bullshit. We are all human beings. Why can't we just get that in are heads. There are so many nations on this big blue planet. Yet we are overlooking one. The human nation. As soon as we can take care of everybody then I will truly be happy. No favorites, no rich or poor, just people man. I think that everyone should be free to do any peaceful thing they want. Let the ideas flow and the people will follow. Good or bad right or wrong. Explore Your Mind!