Just had to ramble...

Do you feel it? The screaming in my head... yelling at me I don't understand. The voices the though of the insurmountable goals of a under appreciated man. I just don't get it. The thoughts racing. What, why, it just keeps racing. The feeling that this could only be caused by that of another. Legs twitching...jonesing for a cigarette. To die right now would be a same. Here I am nothing yet in my own mind I am king. Simple are those who just don't feel the calling. Better things await. I hope. Hope, its such a small word with wide aspirations. To hope of a better future for all people. People of all races. I would say religions yet religion in my eyes is a myth. I've heard it all before. We do what we do be cause thats what drives us. The dream for all mankind. To better equip ourselves for the future. But why. Shouldn't we be focusing on the present. It's time for change yet change never happens. Evolution of us as a species. But what i want to know is whose next. Or have they already come and gone due to polution or raping of habitat. Crazy people with crazy ideas. They are the ones to follow yet must not be taken lightly. Follow of your own dream is really the way to go. Blended together with the heinz 57 mix of people on this earth. To follow your own dreams but not at the sake of others. Climb your way to the top just make sure that your climbing a mountian and not a pile of dead bodies. Sick but true. The ones at the top should step down for the rest. The ones at the bottom should try to rise up. Can we make it I don't know. But to try. Testing the everlasting spirt of the human race. I would like to a answer for everything and I think the hitch hiker put it the best 42. The question is what you gotta find out. I think he had it just about right when he said how many paths a man must walk. Explore! Thats the true nature of people. For millions of years we have explored. Its the idea of walking the unknown. Thinking outside the box and not stoping to ask whats right and wrong mearly to act and pay the consequences later. Its life. Damned if you do nothing. You have to have something to keep you going. I beleive only in worship of one thing and that would be the goal that you set forth for yourself. Idolize that. It will keep you strong.
As for the people of this world I say this to you. Come together under one Idea. Peace and the will to survive. Why fight about a beleif. A beleif in which you cannot prove. We have baiscly proven evolution. Not that I'm a scientific person but we can't it just be about the journey and not about whos right and wrong. Lets just put it all out there. Say that your god or goddess or gods exist. Do you think for one second that a all powerful being that surely knows way more than our minds can imagine let alone understand would want you to fight/promote violence over the beleif in itself. Why would that god/gods want you to fight and demoralize its core values. Wouldn't it rather you expand your knowlege so even the next time you ran into a nonbeleiver you could be better equiped to deal with the situation presented. You always hear about religious tensions everywhere. WHY? Why can we not just get along. You go do your thing and I will go do my thing. Thats all we have to say. Where does this preexisting violence always spawn from. I understand that urge for violence is uderly sown into our genetic make up or hardwired into our brains. But the thing is this why can't we find some way to control it. With all the things we have available to us, why is it just so hard for us to vent in a successful way? There are sports, art, even something as simple as punching a wall. Shit I have patched a couple holes in the walls of my parents place. Its better a wall then somebodys face. People are dieing every day and yet we just can't change out ways. I know one thing... and that is that if I were to bring children into this world I would teach them one thing. Dream!
Now that I got that all out of me I guess I'm back to the original reason for this post. As of two days ago I totally flip flopped my schedule and today being the first day of this new schedule I feel very strange. I was watching tv and I just had to come type something. I was jonesing. My heart was racing and my mind, oh it was truely a mind fuck. So I sat down pulled up the browser and this is what I got so I hope you enjoyed. I swear some days are just crazy!

Haven't Been On In a Bit...

Yea, though I would get on and give you guys the good ol update. Got like 24 days in the book no smoking of the good herb. Maybe I can get a job now! It really sucks when you have a bachelors degree and you still can't get a job. Like really, wtf? Any ways got the halarious new Obama Yo Mama! T-shirt out. LMAO! Check it out shits great. Also I was out in the country the other day travling to my cousins house and I stopped to take some cool new panoramic photos. I love these pics. Got 2 new ones check them out http://fav.me/d2b06jb & http://fav.me/d2awsse ... Like them both. Really good stuff! Any way. Waiting on phone call that seems to never come. Got a interview with a vallet car company here in Rockbottom. See what they say when I tell them I really can't drive a stick well. Any case thats at 9am if I even get up that early. Gonna try real hard. Need a job worse than ever. Got bills to pay! Keep working on the art and the zazzle store but I guess the world is as broke as I am considering I still haven't sold anything. I just wish someone would buy something so I know the shit works. Starting to wonder if I'll ever sell anything. So if you guys do buy something let me know so I can at least check and see if it shows up!
Well off to more pointless endevores. Next fri new stargate woo hoo...

TOGA!

Getting amped for this toga party! Gonna be one hell of a birthday bash! Get at me on myspace or facebook you wanna TOGA!

Faster than light...

Sorry, not really. But MadBill is running now. Good exercise! Trying to go every day. Everytime I go I run farther and farther. Hoping to make it around the neighborhood in about another week or so. I'm doing half the hood stop and go right now. I shouldn't say stop and go but rather run and walk. I have been running at night as it is a lot cooler. But I did my first day time run today around noon. I'm thinking I'm gonna double up and see how that works. Once in the mouring when I get up and once at night before bed. I'll give it a go tonight and see how I feel. Legs are tired right now. But I got all day to relax so we'll see.
In other news I'm still jobless, so let everybody know BFA for hire! Also today is day 12 no smoking! Woo hoo! I am over a third of the way to where I have to be! I'll just come right out and say it I was a pothead! It takes like a month to get out of your system. So I'm 12 days. getting there. Hope the working out helps with that. Since the THC stays in your fatty cells maybe I can get rid of some! :) Just tring to get healthy in Rockford. Gotta get out of this town somehow!

Intill next time,
MadBill

Just don't get it...?,,,

So really, I just don't get it. You here all these stories about people making money on the internet. It can't be happening. I have been putting my heart and soul into marketing my art for 2 years. I haven't even made a dollar. I don't claim to be a Picasso or a Monet but I got some stuff going for me. I say some of my art is cool and some of my art is cool for me. I don't claim that all my stuff is great. There are some tasty nuggets in there but I just can't get people to bite. I have tried everything. Got the blog here (obvious). I swear no one reads this. (Just to prove my point if you read this comment) I have the DeviantArt Page for fine art prints. Got my myspace and facebook (Bill Faulkner). I have a Zazzle account rocking the posters and flair. Even rocking the twitter, youtube, and BigStock Photos. You can even Digg my stuff! So all this and nothing. I know I am feeling a bit sorry for myself, but I just need a little satisfaction. I wanna know that someone out there likes my stuff. I do this not just for me but for you the audience. I wanna know what you like and what you don't so I can move on creating better things for you. I mean I get no feedback at all, and trust me I been asking for it. I get the occasional fav on DevArt but nothing of any substance. Thats nine sites I'm rocking and I can't even get a "make more stuff like that" or a "Next time I would change that up a bit". I guess I just want a litte encourgement. Things aren't going well for me at all. I have a Bachlors degree and I can't even get a job flippin burgers. It seems I'm losing my way and I don't even have a single person to lean on anymore. Just think I do a lot for you, just want a little something for me.
Ok the pitty partys over.
Just had to get it off my chest!
:( MadBill :)
Madness in the Making!

on the scene at the supermarket...

Lol, nice title huh? Any way, I'm always looking for new exciting ways to get my art out there and I think this is it. Found a new site that allows me to put all my great artwork on all the things you love. Going to be updating everything today. Bear with me as it might throw facebook, and myspace for a loop. The blog here should be rather simple when I get on it. In any case I'm gonna have T-shirts, mugs, magnets, posters, skateboards, etc. You name it I'll be getting it shortly. If you don't see what you want let me know and I'll try to get it for you asap. In any case. The stuff is way cheaper than the fine art prints on Deviant Art and lol its making me alot more moula. Gotta love that. Watch the sites for the updates. Should have a whole store front available by the end of the day.

Best wishes,
MadBill

Walking in place...

Listening to Perpetual Groove... These guys are the shit!

But yeah still on the job hunt. Don't suppose anybody wants to employee a BFA around the greater rockford/chicago area? Didn't think so. Some times I just feel like I'm walking in place. Just trying to get to the horizon. To bad I'm on a big treadmill and I think the pitch keeps getting dialed up. Oh well. When I fall off at least it will be fun to watch. :)

I'm trying to quit smoking and let me tell you, ROUGH! It is getting better though. I am at a week but I did cheat on the cigs one night. What can I say I was drunk and it makes it like a thousand times worse. But since then I'm back on the quitting thing. I havent smoked any erb in a week. Three more to go and I can pass a drug test for sure. Hooray, then maybe I can get a job. I'll tell you its rough. Don't think I'm gonna be doing a whole lot of anything here in the near future. Gonna start roaming around a little more. Taking some good pics along the way. Need some new material for photoshop. Got a kinda writers block going on here with the art. I start stuff but can't finish it off. So I don't know whats going on. Think it has to do with all the changes. But rest assured I'll be back on top on my game like never before here soon.

Any way. Looking for Mrs. Right, any takers? Hit me up. :) Lots of Luv!

Till next time,
MadBill

Update on painting...

So I finally got the painting done. Check it out at http://fav.me/d29slfj


C.A.F. Reworked by *psycozugninga on deviantART

A little off

Well it is true. I am a little off right now. I have decided to quit smoking. I have done this before, but I really need to quit. I can't breath anymore not to mention I am so out of shape. Started a little workout to keep me busy and my mind off things. Its been three days since I smoked anything and I think I'm going bonkers. Just have to get through it. And "IT" SUX! Got the computer up and running again but I am worried about it. The thing has taken a beating over the years. It's still faster than most though. I have been through a motherboard, two sets of fans, and I think I'm having a bit of trouble with the hard drive now. Not sure though. Backed up the whole thing to the external though. Just to be safe and all. I really don't wanna reinstall everything. Anyways, Just wanted to give you all an update and throw some MadBill luv your way. Hit me up! My phone aint rang in two days.

Peace,
MadBill

Kids are ruined!

The things kids have on t.v. today is crap! Whatever happened to the classics. I mean Ninja Turtles, GhostBusters, GI Joe. Kids today get crap. I mean I just don't see anything in pokemon or ben ten. I love cartoons. Animation is awesome. But I want some good stuff for the youth. Even the little kids shows escape me. We had Mr. Rogers, Seasme St., and The Muppets. Granted Seasme St. is still on but kids got crap for selection. Dora the Explorer, WTF, This is America. I got a D in Spanish. That show should be on telemundo not reg channels. I'm all about exposing youth to new things but thats garbage. And the teletubbies omg the most ridicilious kids show ever. It makes no sense and absolutly does not make any kid happy. Try Barney at least the show makes sense. The one tasty nugget in the anals of tv history that needs prime placement and should be embleished forever on tv is Thomas the Tank Engine. That show was awesome and taught kids a good lesson in life. I think the tv channels shoud start bringing back kids shows instead of making new crap. What happened to the CareBears and Teddy Rupxkin? I don't even see Whinnie the Pooh on anymore. It just eats me up knowing that kids won't get the good stuff, unless there parents still use VHS. And parents, use VHS! Think about it, kids and DVDs. They get there hands on the disc one time its over. You can throw a VHS tape at the wall then kick it across the room a couple times stick it in a vcr and it still works fine. Go to the local pawn shop and get your kids a vcr and some classics.

MadBill

Stuck to the couch

Super Mario Galaxy 2 comes out here I believe by Halloween. Its gonna be a nightmare for me. The way I got sucked into the first one, shit now I get yoshi and a bunch of other cool shit. OMMF I am gonna disappear for a month. You might be able to find me in front of my tv drooling all over the controller. Some one save me please.

MadBill

Outside looking inside looking out!

So I find myself unsure of what I want out of life. Success, admiration, I just don't know. I guess I just want to find something that would keep me trucking on the road that is life. A artist in need of art I guess. I love exploring my mind with new ideas about things. But to be honest I can't figure out which ideas I like and want to keep exploring. I finished school for now. I have accumulated a associates in art and a bachelors in film and digital media specifically sound design. I love music but as much as I try to play my guitar I don't seem to find a calling within music as a musician. I like to jam and explore the strings, yet I never seem to be able to put together a great song. I seem do be drifting. I do like recording yet with the internet and downloading the way it is the music industry is shrinking and I don't really feel I will get a job within the recording industry. I'm left with live sound reinforcement for shows and venues. This would be a great job. Mostly weekends and evenings which fits my crazy schedule. I just don't know how to go about getting on with a crew. Everything I have tried has failed before it even gets started. I am such a creative person, yet I don't know where to apply my skills. I love to make art. I have tried several different mediums but find myself going back to digital formats everytime. Photoshop is my best friend. I just can't find my calling. I am ready for a change in my life but not quite sure how to go about it. That stupid movie Joe Dirt has the best saying, "Life's a garden, dig it!" My problem being I don't know where to dig. If you got any ideas for me or are intrested in my art work let me know. I appreciate any feed back.

Everybody always says there has to be more to life than just living. But I feel that in my 25 years life has been rather messed up, and why would you want more. To live forever would suck. You want a answer to life. I go with the hitchhiker on this one. 42 paths a man must walk down. I have definatly walked about 5 to 10 by now. Just keep a working my way down the olive branch. I have loved and lost, loved and won, then lost again. To keep reaching for a new life. A better life. One that could spring board me to a even better level of conciousness. No war. No Fighting. Just a peacful life with peaceful people. I understand peoples views differ on many subjects. But why is it always about whos right and whos wrong. Can't we just agree to disagree. If you need proof to the countrary of someone elses beleifs. Fine prove it, but don't rub it in their face. To me that shows how much less of a person you are then them.

Just tired of bullshit I guess. God knows I'm not perfect but I'll keep reaching for some sunshine on a cloudy day. Fighting only to defend myself not to prove a point. The Beatles said it, "Come together" And I admire what they were saying. We need to come together and stop the bullshit. We are all human beings. Why can't we just get that in are heads. There are so many nations on this big blue planet. Yet we are overlooking one. The human nation. As soon as we can take care of everybody then I will truly be happy. No favorites, no rich or poor, just people man. I think that everyone should be free to do any peaceful thing they want. Let the ideas flow and the people will follow. Good or bad right or wrong. Explore Your Mind!

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Tasty goodness!

Just wanted to inform everybody of the awesome print selection I got over on Deviant Art. They got everything from prints and puzzles to mugs, coasters, and magnets. All this and the freshest art on the internet. Check it out at http://fav.me/p7851678 Explore your mind with MadBill Art.

Updates cont...

Ok got a whole new look going on. Let me know what ya think. Do you like the new look or not? Hit me with a comment, suggestions for improvement are not taken lightly and always appreciated!

Blog updates...

I have been making some updates to the blog. Hang in there while I get it down. New to the blogging scene and all. When you get on my blog now you will see a RSS feed now so feel free to subscribe. Also I have updated the layout and twitter sections of the blog. I will be working on some more detailed html stuff later but I just wanted to get it out there. Gonna make this thing great here shortly!

Update on the painting...

So I have been working hard on this piece. Got a few layers down on it. Its not done yet but its coming together. These temper paints are something else. Very colorful though. The content is a surprise but I think if it turns out good I am going to give it to my brother. He has a new born and the colorful painting would be rather stimulating for the young lad. Inspire the imagination, you know. We will see and as always keep ya informed.
My computer took a crap on me and I'm waiting for parts so the digital art might be slim pickens for a bit, but I'll get back at it pretty quick. You know you cant put a good artist down.
Till next time,
MadBill
"Explore your mind!"

Postal

So the art thing isn't working out so great right now. Can't get enough sales on the art. Dope stuff though. If you interested check out the links on the left. So whats MadBill to do? Well for starters I'm going to UPS for seasonal help. Prob get in there permanent. Needless to say I can think of some better things a BFA should be doing than postal work. I call upon all those people out there. If you like the art, hook it up. If you need sound or video assistance LET ME KNOW. I'm down for anything as long as there is a paycheck involved.

Untill next time,
MadBill

Marbles...

Life to me seems like a game of marbles. The big shooter marble is me and all the other marbles are friends, family, and acquaintances. Its a bumpy ride that's for sure. You see as I have went through my life I have met many marbles. Some blood thirsty red ones, cool blue, psychedelic yellow, frosted green, texturized tan, and even transparent. I have pretty much seen them all. As I move further and further in the game the marbles get less and less. Scooped up or knocked out they just keep disappearing. I sit around now a days and wonder if there are gonna be new marbles to play with or if I'll be the only marble left? I wonder only because the new marbles are getting rarer and rarer. The good marbles that never got knocked out are disappering quicker and quicker. Knocking me out to meet their own ends. I just don't know what to do. Will the game end? Will there be another round? Win or lose I just don't know how to see it. I miss the marbles that got me to where I am. It seems we were so close yet drift has carried us apart. This road is known be none yet traveled by many. It just makes me wonder what life would be like had I have made diffrent choices... Well enough is enough and your brain is probally mush after reading my bable. I would just like to say to all the young folks. Life is short, meet everybody. You don't know how fast they go...
MadBill

Prints and more...

Hey everybody,
Just wanna let everyone know about the print shop over on deviant art.
http://psycozugninga.deviantart.com/prints/?itemtypeids=24
They got everything from canvas and photo prints to costers, mugs, and puzzles! The choice is up to you! Enjoy the art and always remember to explore your mind with MadBill Art!

Thanks again,
MadBill

New Art

Got some new art posted. This new piece I have "Earth and Nature" is about te sickest piece I have ever done! It's really just amazing! Check it out on deviant art now! http://psycozugninga.deviantart.com/art/Earth-and-Nature-134541727
Let me know what you think. Feedback is greatly appreciated!

Thanks,
MadBill

The sound of sound!

So a little while back I was introduced to a newer development in the sound world. It was so shocking that it just made me say "whaaaat". Here's the deal. A company which I think is called Ultrasonics released a product called the Ultrasonic sound pannel. Now if the thing really works it could be one of the greatest sound creations yet. It could inspires so many people to just have a blast. The pannel essentially channels sound like a laser allowing you to focus it where you want it. The things are dope. They are putting them in supermarkets and other retailers across the country as a advertising thing. Now I have tried to get specs on the things and figure out exactly what they are doing to channel the sound. But I can't find an answer anywhere. I have a BFA in sound and still can't tell you what the heck is going on. So here is what I am asking you (the reader). If you can find any valid info about how these sound panels work. Pop me a message or leave a comment. Anything that could help get to the bottom of this. I guess I'm just a curious sound guy and can't find the answer I'm looking for.
Thanks and sincerely,
MadBill

Ideas of the random!

Had this awesome idea for a video art piece last night. Beleive it or not it came from a drunken moment between friends. I kinda gotta keep it on the hush hush but you know it will be dope. Lets just say it involves one of those great board games from everybodys past. I'll get it posted on youtube as soon as we get it out of post! Sorry to make you wait but masterpieces are always worth it!

Painting

I got bored tonight so I started a painting! Looks really cool but its far from done. Its like round on in a 6 round fight(the temper paints are winning). The sucker is hanging up right now drying getting ready for round two. Any way, it will be a nice fall piece when it gets done. Another print for everyone to enjoy. Let you all know when it gets done!

MadBill

Updates

Got some new gadgets and stuff to make the blog a little more happy looking. Got the latest feed running from both my twitter and deviant art accounts. You get it all in one blog now! Check out the art or read up on me a bit. Hope to see you soon.
MadBill

MadBill Art got a blog!

What up people! MadBill got a blog! Over the course of time I will be posting all kinds of the latest art from yours truly. Hope you like it and if you have inquireys just send me a message and I will answer it asap!